Sunday, April 28, 2013

The Acceptance

When I was a little kid I saw other kids excelling in the fields they chose to work on. Soon I realized I was doing nothing. There was no motivation in my life instead I was being pressed only to study(which of course I didn't follow). In fact I had no talents in those days but initially I started participating in cultural activities. I always volunteered for some or the other thing but most of the times DRAMA, because it used to intrigue me. I loved to do drama on stage, maybe because I liked to do it or maybe because of people, I had wished that people around me should love and praise me or also maybe for recognition or maybe for making people realizing my worth. 

This is one of stage plays I was part of.

I had a very hard time during my childhood, as I was not one of those bright students that teachers used to praise. So I decided to stick to cultural acts, but I was always a part of background not the main highlight. I remember I was scared and nervous so I always screwed up. But that wasn't bringing me down. I remember I once tried doing dance on stage also. Traditional Rajasthani dance which went awesome as far as I remember. I was brimming up with confidence.


Traditional Rajasthani Dance

But later it was all the same becoming the background in those acts. It was all about the talent and I knew I possessed none. Till a very long period I was part of house function or the annual functions in my school. But the fact I was untalented lead me to despair and there was a feeling of hopelessness in me. Not only I screwed up in studies but also in my so called cultural acts. I left taking part, I had quit. And even in real life I had become the background. The only reason I started all this was lost. And my school life ended without accomplishing anything.

Having no talents was a major drawback in my life, gave me a real tough time dealing the situations. But having quit gave me no happiness either. Somewhere I knew I have to accept whatever I had and move on. You know sometimes when you want something and you don't get it and the time has gone to achieve it, you just go to accept it and move on. At that time you couldn't do a thing but life isn't over to make accomplishments. Now I know even I possess no talent I need to build one, instead of doing nothing and mourning about it. Everyone has dreams and even if your dreams doesn't comes true, never give up because someday the dream will come finding you. And hopefully someday I become a good writer as well.

Accept Your Shortcoming and Mistakes. Never Give Up Even If There Is No Way. If You Give Up There Will Be No Way.


Monday, April 22, 2013

A Lost Inspiration

One of my regular reader requested me to start my blog again, so I promised her that I would write again. I've been away for quite a long time. So today when I decided to write, I was left blank. I just kept on thinking for hours on a subject to write upon but all went in vain. I felt like I was missing a piece, an inspiration to go on. I don't know how the fire within me had been set off. I had lost the inspiration to write. Maybe because I was away for a very long time or maybe I didn't find any topic to ignite my mind.

Earlier when I used to write, I felt like my finger's had a brain of their own. Like it came to naturally, words after words, sentences after sentences. I never had to think too much about the topic. But now a days, this world is off, it is too dark for me too see, the path is not clear, a piece of puzzle is missing. It makes me sad. But as all these thoughts clouded my mind, I thought to walk back and read all the other previous posts I had written.

As I was walking back track, I just wondered and even doubted that did I really write all this? But yes there was smile on my face and a belief that I have what it takes to be a writer. Maybe I had given up on this dream of mine. But now as I write this post I promise to myself that I would never ever give up on this sole talent of mine. And also would work upon sharpening my skills. And in the end I would like to thank my friend Rachael to remind me what I was and what I wanted to be and I promise it you that you'll get more regular posts


WRITING IS A GIFT TO ME, MY SOLE PURPOSE IN LIFE. THANK YOU FOR REMIND ME THAT.............