Life and thorns

PROBLEMS, To be precise this is the thing which I face everyday in my life, everyone does. Almost every person on this earth will tell you this,"EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS". And that line comes up when you actually discuss your problems with the people. Yeah! and its true, but why people relate themselves to each others problem. Like someone tells you I have faced even bigger troubles in my life. And you think,"yeah dude, you have won a war."

I don't really think there is even sense in comparing your troubles with others. And even though what people mean by saying everyone has problems. It my own damn trouble I have to take it on by myself and ya of course you have yours. So really I have nothing to do with others problems, as I am busy handling my own. So don't give me that line again but a way out. I really think that line as a salt on own wounds. Like someone tells you he has come out of worse. And you are like "MY HERO"  (-_-)

These problems seems so endless, even breaking your last nerve. You may often break down by it, but trust me this not the end (^_^) . There are more problems coming to you sooner or later. And you don't have a choice but to walk through them. Not breaking yourself but breaking them. Many time you may find some selfless people in your way that will help you out with your mayhem. But don't start believing it their problem, your problems are always yours. You should accept it. And you should keep walking. Trust me that's life. 



“The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.” 

   ~Albert Ellis 

Falling in love

Have you ever thought of being in love and living the feeling that surrounds it? LOVE or INFATUATION, I don't know what it was with those few relationships I had till today. One thing I am sure about that I had very strange happy feeling but incomplete feeling not once but twice. I had known that those feeling could have completed my life if I had become one with it. At some place I knew that feeling was certainly what we call it "LOVE". The reason behind it was simple, till today I couldn't let go that feeling.

It were the days of my childhood and any other day at school. Like always I was sitting at one corner in my class , enjoying with myself. When my crush entered the class, I had my eyes glued on her pretty face. She smiled waving at her friend. And here I was smiling looking at her. Next thought in my mind that came,"Is she the one?" I had no answer but a doubt in my heart. Sometime later I confirmed she wasn't. And that year passed and our classes shuffled. And she got faded away from my memories.

And then she came into my life and life turned upside down. That was the first time I had experienced such immense happiness out of my life. That random friend request sent by me to her and her accepting the request by chance, sealed our fates. I was always excited whenever she used to appear online, like I always knew when is she going to turn up. That green light made my heart pound like now its going to rip my chest and come out. And days passed we gradually moved on to next level and that is on phone.

12 to 3 at night used to be our quality time that we used to spend on phone. Raising mine and her phone bills over the charts. But those days I bothered less about those things. I had known that her answer would be a no and she had clarified to me, why? But this never let me hold back to get her. Years passed we became good friends. My confidence went low and I thought of letting her go. And that was the phase when I had those few relationships. And each one of them failed and ended up in disaster.

Each one of those signaled me that she wasn't the one. And all those times over paths crossed again and again. In the end I decide not to think about love anymore. Gradually over friendship and bonds grew stronger we became closer. Later I demanded for an answer for it was the same. And then I decided not to hold back for my expectations. And I decided to search for that perfect person. Living my life normally, making new and good friends. Among them was the girl who always laughed at everything. She was always happy. We came to know each other very well. Later I had that same strange happy but incomplete feeling. I knew that she is perfect for me. And her answer was also the same. 

LOVE FAILED ME TWICE

Drowning in the Reality, When I lived my life as a Dream.

When I opened my eyes from a happy dream. 

I found myself in the middle of the ocean. 

Sinking deeper and deeper in it. 

I thought it was just another dream. 

I tried to wake myself up but realized it was my horrible reality.

I knew it was the ocean of despair, pulling me in deeper inside. 

I struggled a lot to get back to the surface and to get my life. 

But I sank even more deeper as I didn't knew how to swim.

I prayed for help, I begged for it. 

I saw faces of all those people whom I lived for. 

I called for help one by one. 

Most of them ignored me, some of them laughed. 

And few of them gave their hand to me but I couldn't grab. 

The ocean pulled me deeper, where I couldn't see. 

There was no light, I was in dark pit, suffocating and struggling. 

And in the end that ocean and pit became a part of me.

ARTIST AT THE STATION

Well it was just like any another day at work, tiring and exhausting. I finished my work at Nerul and was waiting for the train for CST at nerul station. I was looking for a place to sit when I saw a man in glasses holding a sketch book and a pencil,trying to sketch something. I sat next to him and tried to peek in his book. He immediately withdrew his book. I guess he got embarrassed and didn't wanted to be bothered. I turned my head towards the station watch and found there were 5 minutes left for the train to arrive.

But I couldn't help myself I again peeked in his book. There was a sketch of a girl. I saw him and then towards the next platform. I was shocked when I saw the same girl on other platform. By that time the artist realized that I saw his sketch. He asked me,"Isn't she beautiful?" I nodded my head. And saw the girl again and thought,"Indeed she is". Then he showed me his sketch book. I was again shocked. All the pages of that sketch book had sketches of that same lady. And they were all so beautiful sketched that I couldn't take my eyes off them.  

Till that time I hadn't realized that the man was deaf. He had a hearing aid on his left ears. I was puzzled and he understood my state. He told me that this girl came everyday at the station at this hour and he waited for her everyday just to draw sketches of her. I asked,"WHY?" He smiled and simply answered that,"SHE was his INSPIRATION." I understood everything and started to smile.  And then my train arrived. And I parted from him with a smile and waving hands. Later I realized that I forgot to ask his name. So I name him "ARTIST". And I was just smiling thinking about that incident. 

INSPIRATION IS A BEAUTIFUL THING BECAUSE EVERY PERSON GETS INSPIRED IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS AND BY MANY DIFFERENT MEANS................ 

A Loveless Fate

What does becomes of a man when the most beautiful feeling of his turns into the most grave feeling of his life? What does happens to that man who just wanted to acquire that feeling his whole life? What will you call a man who ran behind that feeling and was empty handed in the end? Will anyone ever understand what that man feels deep inside his heart, carving for that just one feeling he chased his whole life? Would anyone ever understand the pain concealed within the depth of his heart?


The man was struck from a feeling that is called "LOVE".  The man that had fallen for love of his life, his lady.The lady whom he preached as the goddess of his life. The lady whose eyes that were so deep that he could gaze into them forever, a face that was so bright that just a look would enlighten his soul,a smile that was so beautiful that made his heart melt,a voice that was so soft and melodious that reached his soul and soothes his lonely heart,the hands that were so warm that he could never think of leaving them.
The man wanted nothing more but just the love of the lady. He always believed once he had her love, he could buy all the happiness in this world for them, he could accomplish any goal in his life, he could do anything. The man was so in love that he was blindly walking towards despair, disappointment, sorrow and a pit of loneliness.Unaware the man declared his love for his lady, he was left heart broken when she told she doesn't have the same feeling for him as he had for her. The lady considered him as her acquaintance.


Collecting the shattered pieces of his heart, the man decided not to let go the lady and he also accepted her as his ally. But deep inside he wanted to change her heart. He wanted to make her his own. He wanted the lady to realize how much she meant for him. He decided to wait for her till the end not realizing that he even he may have the change of heart. On the journey of waiting for his beloved, the man had change of heart many times, he often changed his path. But the destiny or his wrong decision made him cross the same path again.


Yet he walked on the same path after many diversion, his feelings may have taken many ups and downs but the love for his lady never changed. After waiting long enough, the man's patience was over and he demanded for a final answer. A answer that could make him walk on the bed of flower or the floor of fire. The lady said yes to him, that made him go on the cloud nine. But also the lady told him that she still had no feelings for him. And she laid the entire decision to him whether to have loveless love or to be the best allies. By that time his heart had become nothing but dust. The man decide what was right for both of them.

And That Was End of His LOVE....................... </3