Have you ever thought of being in love and living the feeling that surrounds it? LOVE or INFATUATION, I don't know what it was with those few relationships I had till today. One thing I am sure about that I had very strange happy feeling but incomplete feeling not once but twice. I had known that those feeling could have completed my life if I had become one with it. At some place I knew that feeling was certainly what we call it "LOVE". The reason behind it was simple, till today I couldn't let go that feeling.
It were the days of my childhood and any other day at school. Like always I was sitting at one corner in my class , enjoying with myself. When my crush entered the class, I had my eyes glued on her pretty face. She smiled waving at her friend. And here I was smiling looking at her. Next thought in my mind that came,"Is she the one?" I had no answer but a doubt in my heart. Sometime later I confirmed she wasn't. And that year passed and our classes shuffled. And she got faded away from my memories.
And then she came into my life and life turned upside down. That was the first time I had experienced such immense happiness out of my life. That random friend request sent by me to her and her accepting the request by chance, sealed our fates. I was always excited whenever she used to appear online, like I always knew when is she going to turn up. That green light made my heart pound like now its going to rip my chest and come out. And days passed we gradually moved on to next level and that is on phone.
12 to 3 at night used to be our quality time that we used to spend on phone. Raising mine and her phone bills over the charts. But those days I bothered less about those things. I had known that her answer would be a no and she had clarified to me, why? But this never let me hold back to get her. Years passed we became good friends. My confidence went low and I thought of letting her go. And that was the phase when I had those few relationships. And each one of them failed and ended up in disaster.
Each one of those signaled me that she wasn't the one. And all those times over paths crossed again and again. In the end I decide not to think about love anymore. Gradually over friendship and bonds grew stronger we became closer. Later I demanded for an answer for it was the same. And then I decided not to hold back for my expectations. And I decided to search for that perfect person. Living my life normally, making new and good friends. Among them was the girl who always laughed at everything. She was always happy. We came to know each other very well. Later I had that same strange happy but incomplete feeling. I knew that she is perfect for me. And her answer was also the same.
LOVE FAILED ME TWICE
It were the days of my childhood and any other day at school. Like always I was sitting at one corner in my class , enjoying with myself. When my crush entered the class, I had my eyes glued on her pretty face. She smiled waving at her friend. And here I was smiling looking at her. Next thought in my mind that came,"Is she the one?" I had no answer but a doubt in my heart. Sometime later I confirmed she wasn't. And that year passed and our classes shuffled. And she got faded away from my memories.
And then she came into my life and life turned upside down. That was the first time I had experienced such immense happiness out of my life. That random friend request sent by me to her and her accepting the request by chance, sealed our fates. I was always excited whenever she used to appear online, like I always knew when is she going to turn up. That green light made my heart pound like now its going to rip my chest and come out. And days passed we gradually moved on to next level and that is on phone.
12 to 3 at night used to be our quality time that we used to spend on phone. Raising mine and her phone bills over the charts. But those days I bothered less about those things. I had known that her answer would be a no and she had clarified to me, why? But this never let me hold back to get her. Years passed we became good friends. My confidence went low and I thought of letting her go. And that was the phase when I had those few relationships. And each one of them failed and ended up in disaster.
Each one of those signaled me that she wasn't the one. And all those times over paths crossed again and again. In the end I decide not to think about love anymore. Gradually over friendship and bonds grew stronger we became closer. Later I demanded for an answer for it was the same. And then I decided not to hold back for my expectations. And I decided to search for that perfect person. Living my life normally, making new and good friends. Among them was the girl who always laughed at everything. She was always happy. We came to know each other very well. Later I had that same strange happy but incomplete feeling. I knew that she is perfect for me. And her answer was also the same.
LOVE FAILED ME TWICE
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