a black and white life.

You're sitting alone on your bed and you're thinking what went wrong all these years. You were so confused about everything in your life. And you realise you're sitting in a puddle of mess because of your wrong decision and then you question yourself,"Were you ever right about anything?" And then there is no answer, just an emotion of sorrow and emptiness. You feel that you're helpless and that consumes you. That single feeling turns you into an empty shell of nothingness.

Years pass by nothing really changes, no matter how much you try. You see many happy faces around you and that encourages you to be happy. But you cannot be truly happy. And then someday you realise you've turned into an empty shell that is hollow. Every emotion goes through you but doesn't stay. You think everything around you is meaningless. You hang out with people but you know you're not with them. 

But there are somethings you realise when you truly open your eyes and mind. You will realise all these years you've been carrying around extra something on your back. That extra something has been slowing you down. And everyone else have moved ahead of you. And you just moved into that shell, that shell you were wearing around yourself, that shell you thought would protect you. And then you got separated from everyone else.

But you know in a moment you realise you don't want to be protected and you don't want to be in the shell. You might not really get rid of that extra something you were carrying around and maybe it will be around for life. But if you look closely you'll find hands of those who'll share your load with you. And then you realise you're not alone and afraid to face the world anymore.  

 Wrong decisions in life may seem wrong until you've realised that you've gained a treasure of experiences.