From Dark To The Light

If you have read my previous entries, I have mentioned many past incidents of my life. I have gone through a real bad time but at that time, I didn't give up. Thus I survived and as a result I became stronger. I am not sharing all this just because I want you to know about me, I want you guys to learn from it. Don't be like me otherwise you might end up screwing up your life, your childhood, Just like I did. I don't want any other person to have same fate as mine. 

Thinking about past doesn't affect me much now, I had a hard time getting over it. All those tear and lonely time. It was a curse on my childhood. My life hadn't been so great all along, but that was past. You see there is no sense crying over things you cannot change. I have chosen to leave all that behind. Its such a relief now. I am excited to have the whole new glorious life waiting ahead for me.

Everything that happens in your life, happens for a reason, and I believe for a good reason. To be frank if I wouldn't have seen the bad times, I wouldn't be the person I am right now. So I guess the score is settled. I know how it feels so I am there to aid you. When you have seen the pain, naturally you would tend to understand others pain. And even I believe if a person survives the bad times, he can face any difficulty. In other words he becomes strong.

TODAY I WOULD LIKE TO THANKS LIFE FOR INFLICTING SO MUCH PAIN ON ME. JUST BECAUSE OF THAT I BECAME A GOOD AND STRONG HUMAN BEING. AND ALSO MAKING ME A UNDERSTANDING PERSON

Resentment

It was not long back, when I wrote the entry Dead Relations. But back then I didn't realize I was consumed by hatred. I was angry at him. So in anger I decided not to forgive him ever. But when I gave second thoughts about what happened back then, I realize it wasn't his fault entirely. I am to be blamed equally. Even I was wrong at my part. I have started regretting about doing ill to him. But my life had moved on so far now that I cannot do anything to change it back.

Hatred and anger leads to pain and suffering. And in my painful past I had suffered a lot. Well back then, I had been a real jerk that I had stopped talking to him. And when I had picked up fight with our friend, I expected him to be on my side. I even tried to lure him on my side. But all that failed. Back then I had hurt a lot of peoples. Just because of my anger, I lost all of them. I was the one who suffered the most. Ending up in heavy losses and pain.

But what is gone is gone, I have no control over that but I control what going to happen next. From now on I am going to make decisions open-minded. Even if I was wrong, I had some observation over his part, where I felt he could have done right. He left me without understanding a bit, When we were not talking, he never came to ask what was wrong. When I had a fight, I was there all alone. At least for so many years of friendship, he could have persuaded me to make things right. Well I cried a lot that I could save our friendship. But couldn't.

Even now I admit, the time we had spent together, was the best time of my life. And I want to promise him that I will cherish that time till the very end. I know I was filled with rage, anger and hatred, but now I release all the hate confined within me. I hold no more grudges against any of my old friends. I forgive you all. But now the fact is we are strangers from this day. You lost a old friend.

I WOULD SINCERELY LIKE TO APOLOGIZE TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE I HAVE HURT TILL NOW.  AND I WANT TO SAY "LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR US TO HATE AND THEN SUFFER". AND ONE MORE THING ALWAYS LEARN TO FORGIVE PEOPLE BECAUSE ITS THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO.

100 Things To Do in Bombay

Courtesy: http://mumbai.metblogs.com/2008/12/16/100-things-to-do-in-bombay/
It's not written by me. So I personally feel that I should mention it's source. :)

1. Get high on qawwali at Haji Ali
2. Spot a celebrity at Juhu PVR
3. Sit down on the steps of Asiatic Society library
4. Crane your neck to see the Bombay Stock Exchange building
5. Spot a leopard in IIT Bombay campus. If you can’t, then settle for an IITian girl
6. Enjoy a play in Prithvi Theatre
7. Enjoy the NCPA in a play or opera
8. Find some calm around the Banganga tank
9. Haggle for non-antiques in Chor Bazaar
10. Face the high tide on Worli seaface
11. Bet money on race horses at the Royal Western India Turf Club, Mahalaxmi
12. Dangle your feet, lean back on your palms and enjoy the sea from the Marine Drive promenade
13. Go for a heritage walk in the Naval Dockyard (first Sunday every month, Indian nationals only)
14. Explore the Sanjay Gandhi national park. A national park in city limits? Oh yeah!
15. Soak in the Victoria Terminus
16. Watch DDLJ at Maratha Mandir
17. Party at Hard Rock Cafe and mourn for a minute the death of mills around Parel
18. Jog on Juhu beach
19. Sit on a tetropod at Nariman Point in midnight till police constables shoo you away
20. Stand still on flyover bridger at Dadar station and watch the crowd whiz by you
21. Find out who is grittier. You or Crawford market?
22. Find the Fort wall
23. Ride the Victoria on Marine Drive. Yeah, cheesy, we know
24. Discover the city’s Jewish connection at Keneseth Eliyahoo Synagogue
25. Watch sunset over Aksa beach in Madh Island
26. Discover the underbelly of Bombay in Dharavi
27. Stay for a night at Taj Mahal Palace hotel. You definitely want to tick off this luxury address for the oh-I-stayed-there-for-a-while conversations, don’t you?
28. Catch the national madness of cricket in Oval Maidan
29. Read a Bombay book (Suketu Mehta’s Maximum City?) in Azaad Maidan
30. Cheer a football match at Cooperage ground
31. Bury your nose in books for hours at Strand
32. Stroll in Bombay University
33. Climb the airport wall in Kurla to gain phenomenal views of Boeings
34. Swoon at a concert in Bandra Kurla complex
35. Gaze at the Queen’s Necklace from the Hanging Gardens at dusk
36. Hunt for antique furniture (real or fake?) in Oshiwara
37. Hike up the Mazgaon Hill
38. Buy books from roadsides around Flora Fountain
39. Envy the private palaces of Malabar Hill
40. Party on a ferry in the Arabian Sea off Gateway of India
41. Take a break from the city. Vasai offers the ramparts of Bassein fort, ruins of Portugese churches and East Indian food
42. Trek in Sahayadris
43. Say hello to the fauna at Byculla zoo
44. Buy a camera from D N Road’s gray market
45. Dare the red light district of Kamatipura
46. Guess what RFID system they use to tag clothes at the Dhobi Ghat
47. Take a power nap at David Sassoon Library
48. Catch movies at art-deco cinemas: Regal (1933), Eros (1938), Metro (1938)
49. Bow your head before city’s famous deities: Mumbadevi, Mahalaxmi, Walkeshwar, Siddhivinayak, Iskcon
50. Dine where Shahrukh Khans and Ness Wadias dine: Olive, Indigo
51. Feel the sufi mysticism at dargahs of Haji Ali and Maqdoom Ali Mahimi
52. Shop at the Bandra boutiques or if they are too expensive, give Hill Road or Fashion Street a shot
53. Gape at famous residences: Shahrukh Khan’s Mannat, Amitabh Bachhan’s Jalsa
54. Discover theatre scene in the city at venues other than Prithvi and NCPA: Sophia Bhabha Hall, Breach Candy; St Andrews, Bandra W; Rangsharda Auditorium, Bandra W; Ravindra Natya Mandir Hall, Prabhadevi; Gadkari Rangayatan, Thane W; Shivaji Mandir; Bhartiya Vidhya Bhavan, Chaupaati; Tejpal Hall, Grant Road
55. Explore the Powai and Vihar lakes
56. Visit the museums: Prince of Wales, Monetary, Modern Art, Mani Bhavan
57. Admire the British era architecture in Fort: Churchgate station, Western Railway headquarters, High Court, General Post Office, Telegraph Office, Police Headquarters
58. Learn about the rock-cut architecture: Elephanta, Kanheri, Mahakali and Karla caves
59. Explore the churches: Gloria Church, Byculla, Portugese; Mt Mary Church, Bandra W, Portugese, 1640; St Michaels Church, Mahim, 1565, rebuilt 1973; St Thomas Cathedral, Flora Fountain, 1718; Wodehouse Church, Colaba, 20th century; Afghan Church, Navy Nagar, Colaba, 1858; Our Lady of Salvation Church, Dadar W, Portugese, 19th century; St John Baptist, Seepz, 1579; St Peter’s Church, Bandra, 1852, rebuilt 1938; St Andrew’s Church, Bandra, Portugese, 1575
60. Check out an art exhibition: Jehangir Art Gallery, Fort; Tao Art Gallery, Worli; Piramal Art Gallery, Nariman Point
61. Buy fish at Sassoon Docks, Cuffe Parade or Dockyard Road, Mazgaon
62. Find the forts of Bombay: Bombay Castle, Fort; Castella de Aguada, Bandra; Madh Fort, Versova; Mahim Fort, Mahim; Sion Fort, Sion; Sewri Fort, Sewri; Worli Fort, Worli
63. Buy a vintage bollywood poster in Mini Market or Lamington Road
64. Getaway to the beaches around Bombay: Alibag, Kashid, Murud, Nagaon
65. Travel to places overnight: Goa, Ajanta Ellora, Mahabaleshwar, Pune, Khandala and Lonavala
66. Discover the charm of marble tabletops, bentwood chairs and irani chai at Parsi cafes
67. Catch behind the scenes action at a Bollywood studio
68. Loft the ball for a six in your neighborhood ‘galli’ cricket but make sure you don’t break any window panes
69. Silently stare at the Towers of Silence and Agiaries
70. Shadow the dabbawalas for one full day
71. Walk through a koliwada
72. Ride a vintage lift in a 100 year old building
73. Travel in a local train. How about the Virar Fast?
74. Ride a double decker bus. Isn’t Bombay the only city where they still run them?
75. If you have made it to a penthouse in Bombay, you might as well enjoy the view
76. Drink cutting chai, eat vada pav
77. Gorge on late night sandwiches in Juhu
78. Sip some wine at an expensive seaside restaurant: Vie Lounge, Juhu; Dome, Intercontinental, Marine Drive; Aurus, Juhu; Salt Water Grill, Girgaum Chaupaati; Bayview Bar, Nariman Point
79. Figure what all the fuss is about having a beer in Mondegar or Leopold
80. Jack you car bonnet using a cold-drink bottle and eat kebabs at Bade Miyan in Taj’s back alley
81. Savour a fine authentic meal of East Indian cuisine at Anant Ashram in Kotichawadi
82. Eat a Gujrati-Marwari thali at Friends Union Joshi club in Kalbadevi
83. Smoke a hookah at roof-top restaurant Koyla in the Arab quarters of Colaba
84. Eat South Indian fare in Matunga
85. Eat pav bhaji, pani puri, bhel puri, sev puri at Girgaum Chaupaati
86. Chew a paan outside Shoppers Stop, Bandra W
87. Indulge yourself with fruity flavors of Naturals ice cream. And if it’s summer, try a cup of alfonso mangoes with malai ice cream
88. Learn out the art of ordering tea in a streetside cafe. “Ek paani kum dena.”
89. Drink Kingfisher, Cobra or Zingaro in your neighborhood look-alike bar of Nightlovers
90. Try the green chilli ice cream at Bachelorrs
91. Swing to some live music as you enjoy your continental meal at Not Just Jazz By The Bay. Do pay attention to the witty hoarding outside as you leave the place
92. Run the Bombay Marathon (Jan)
93. Enjoy the Kala Ghoda arts festival (Feb)
94. Cheer ‘Mumbai Indians’ in an IPL cricket match at Wankhede statdium (May-Jun)
95. Get drenched to the bone while biking in the monsoons (Jul-Sep)
96. Sing “Govinda aala re aala” as 40 feet high human pyramids take the prized matka (Aug-Sep)
97. Get lost in the crowds of Ganesh Chaturthi (Sep)
98. Watch thousands of pink flamingos in the mangroves at Sewri (Nov-May)
99. Eat nihari, kebabs and sweetmeats around Masjid on the eve of Eid (Ramzan)
100. Run a ‘free hug’ campaign. This is Bombay, meri jaan!

Bonds

Sometimes the people you know, don't make much difference in your life but sometimes strangers make huge difference in your life. I don't about others but some strangers did make a huge difference in my life. Now those strangers are a part of my life, part of me. I have a bond with them now, a bond of FRIENDSHIP. I know it may sound little weird to people. But trust me! sometimes you ought to take chance and know them. You may never know those bonds may turn out to be a huge part of your life.

The strangers Meg, Harshita and Anand. I met Harshita and Anand in Europe trip. Well I will start from Anand, sorry Harshita. Anand, a boy from Ahmedabad group from our trip. He is a techno-savvy. I remember in our trip we always used to track and hack wi-fi from our hotels. One of the most funny guy I have ever met. I think there is not a single thing in this whole world of which he can't make joke of. Its his talent. A brilliant web designer and a great footballer. And one of the most respected person in my life, you know, its really not easy to pay for your own foreign trips. I can't end telling about him.

Harshita, a girl from DPS, Durg group from our trip. Agent H from our group.  Well she is shy in front of you if you don't know her. But don't be fooled, she is actually very mischievous. When I saw her first time, it wasn't her cuteness which startled me, it was her shy smile. I remember when we first talked, She was coming all the way clicking the pictures for her teacher(photograph freak) and I asked her, did she count how many picture she took while coming up. And she was like 150(OMG!!!). We became good friends after the trip on our very own facebook. She doesn't likes to be compared. She is also very funny. We used to tell each other jokes and laugh like crazy. She hates studies but I don't really get it, how does she scores in 80s-90s? And a number one ARSENAL fan. Man endless it is.

So we all used to group chat and talk about crazy things, Pj's and many more things. And in that chat I met Meg. Meg, Harshita's sister and Major M of our group. I am really confused from where should I start. Well first I was shy, so we didn't chat much. But eventually, we did and became good friends. I don't have words to describe her. If in one word I have to describe her, it will be "PERFECT". She is really a wonderful person. Every single thing about her is best. One of best thing about her is, she is never ever sad, she is always laughing. She is "the wise one". Whenever I approached her for a piece of advice, I never left empty handed. She can be lazy at times watching tv(her favourite past time), not doing her work. But in the end she always manages to finish it. And the funniest person I know, there is no moment when we are chatting that i am not laughing. She is a understanding person.. She always listens patiently what I have to say and always gives a solution to my problems. Well to be precise I am really finding hard telling more about her, not because I don't know her, because I know so much about her, that I am getting confused what should I tell. So I end it here.

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK FACEBOOK, FOR BRINGING SO GOOD FRIENDS IN MY LIFE. I LOVE YOU FACEBOOK. MEG, HARSHITA, ANAND I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING THERE AND MAKE LAUGH AND CREATING THAT BEAUTIFUL BOND WITH ME. I MADLY ENJOY THE TIME I SPEND WITH YOU GUYS.

People And Experiences

I had been a kind of guy who was always dependent on a thing called "LOVE". I'd try to find why people don't love me. Why I had always been part of their hatred. The trials for finding love for myself led me to self-depreciation. As I used to think it over again and again, why is it always me? I used to think why did everyone deny my presence. I had started to suffer and suffocate from inside. The life had become a burden for me. I was tired of crying every single day. Suffering and pain had become a part of me. I was alone. I thought no one loved me. For me I was a useless person.

But in all this trials I eventually encountered someone who came in my life, who became my life. Every single negative perception that I had about myself in mind was proved wrong by that person. That person valued me, respected me.  That person raised me in my own eyes. I learnt many things after meeting and talking to  that person. Even though I still have problems in my life I don't give much attention to them. Each day now is a pleasant one. I have learned to laugh even in grave situations now.

I would like to share some of things which i learnt in my life.

• Its not wrong being dependent on something, but not every time. Learn to do things on your own because you can do it. 
• Even its not wrong to go out and find yourself a partner. But never be in a haste because you many encounter a wrong person for yourself.
• If u feel nobody loves you and you feel left out. Ask yourself a question, Do you love yourself? or Do you enjoy your own company? If you don't love yourself, how can you expect others to love you.
• This is important, don't think too much, over thinking may lead you to stressful life. If thoughts doesn't leave you try to engage yourself. Trust me it makes situation worse than ever
• Never ever think you are less than anybody else. Always remember you are great, you are beautiful in your own ways.
• Never remain sad or cry, life is too short for such foul activities.
• Problems and hardship aren't there to make you weak, Its there to make you strong and wise.
• You are never alone. If you think people are going away, you are wrong. You are repelling people from your life. Try to have a hold on them
• Make friends, maybe less, But good and trues ones.

Be happy and laugh a lot. Enjoy every moment and cherish them.

THE THINGS I LEARNT AND EVEN IN GOOD OR BAD STATE, I AM HAPPY. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK THOSE FEW PEOPLE FOR BEING IN MY LIFE AND MAKING IT SPECIAL WITH YOUR PRESENCE. FOR WHO I AM TODAY, FOR EVERY GOOD QUALITY I OWN, ITS JUST BECAUSE OF MY BEST FRIEND "SNIGDHA", IF SHE WASN'T THERE I WOULDN'T BE THERE. MY SOURCE OF INSPIRATION, MY PILLARS OF STRENGTH, SHE IS EVERYTHING. 

THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE. :)

Dead Relations

I used to go to his shop to hangout. I spent many golden moment of my life in his shop. After closing his shop we used to hit the streets of Padmanapur on my bike. And that was our favorite place to wander. Then going back to our respective houses. At that time he was my best buddy. We used to face every good or bad situations together. We always used to stick together no matter where we wanted to go. Those days he was my so called best friend. And  today he is nothing.

Well he was my family friend from our childhood but we never interacted in those days. My uncle and his dad are very good friends. One day my uncle, me and my sibling  visited flower show at Pushp Vatika. I met him there and after many year we actually talked and enjoyed some time together. And from that day we became very good friends. I was 13 at that time. As time passed our friendship grew. We started sharing everything with each other. And eventually we became best friends.

With time passing by our wolfpack grew. There was one more member who started to hang out with us. He and me also became good friends. He was a very nice person. And eventually many more people came and became part of our group. Everything was going perfect. We were enjoying a lot. But as time passed by there was a change in my best friend's behavior. He started being rude to me. Many time he used to shout at me. I felt like my presence was annoying him a lot.  So i decided to ignore him for sometime. And I did that for sometime. But i didn't knew that thing would take him even far away from me.

After some days there was a huge fight between me and one of my friend from our group.  No one like's someone messing with his life. I really don't know that I was wrong or right at my place. But I expected him, at least him to be on my side. But not him or anyone from my group took my side. Maybe I was wrong at some instances and I must have sounded offensive few times. But I apologized to them later. And there last words were, "WE DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE EVER AGAIN". And we split up.

I SPENT A REALLY GOOD TIME WITH YOU GUYS AND ENJOYED A LOT. BUT AFTER WHATEVER HAPPENED I WANTED TO RECIPROCATE ALL THAT. BUT NOW THINGS HAVE CHANGED, I WANT TO TELL ALL OF YOU THAT I WILL NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU.
(IN SHORT I DON'T GIVE A F**K)