It was not long back, when I wrote the entry Dead Relations. But back then I didn't realize I was consumed by hatred. I was angry at him. So in anger I decided not to forgive him ever. But when I gave second thoughts about what happened back then, I realize it wasn't his fault entirely. I am to be blamed equally. Even I was wrong at my part. I have started regretting about doing ill to him. But my life had moved on so far now that I cannot do anything to change it back.
Hatred and anger leads to pain and suffering. And in my painful past I had suffered a lot. Well back then, I had been a real jerk that I had stopped talking to him. And when I had picked up fight with our friend, I expected him to be on my side. I even tried to lure him on my side. But all that failed. Back then I had hurt a lot of peoples. Just because of my anger, I lost all of them. I was the one who suffered the most. Ending up in heavy losses and pain.
But what is gone is gone, I have no control over that but I control what going to happen next. From now on I am going to make decisions open-minded. Even if I was wrong, I had some observation over his part, where I felt he could have done right. He left me without understanding a bit, When we were not talking, he never came to ask what was wrong. When I had a fight, I was there all alone. At least for so many years of friendship, he could have persuaded me to make things right. Well I cried a lot that I could save our friendship. But couldn't.
Even now I admit, the time we had spent together, was the best time of my life. And I want to promise him that I will cherish that time till the very end. I know I was filled with rage, anger and hatred, but now I release all the hate confined within me. I hold no more grudges against any of my old friends. I forgive you all. But now the fact is we are strangers from this day. You lost a old friend.
Hatred and anger leads to pain and suffering. And in my painful past I had suffered a lot. Well back then, I had been a real jerk that I had stopped talking to him. And when I had picked up fight with our friend, I expected him to be on my side. I even tried to lure him on my side. But all that failed. Back then I had hurt a lot of peoples. Just because of my anger, I lost all of them. I was the one who suffered the most. Ending up in heavy losses and pain.
But what is gone is gone, I have no control over that but I control what going to happen next. From now on I am going to make decisions open-minded. Even if I was wrong, I had some observation over his part, where I felt he could have done right. He left me without understanding a bit, When we were not talking, he never came to ask what was wrong. When I had a fight, I was there all alone. At least for so many years of friendship, he could have persuaded me to make things right. Well I cried a lot that I could save our friendship. But couldn't.
Even now I admit, the time we had spent together, was the best time of my life. And I want to promise him that I will cherish that time till the very end. I know I was filled with rage, anger and hatred, but now I release all the hate confined within me. I hold no more grudges against any of my old friends. I forgive you all. But now the fact is we are strangers from this day. You lost a old friend.
I WOULD SINCERELY LIKE TO APOLOGIZE TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE I HAVE HURT TILL NOW. AND I WANT TO SAY "LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR US TO HATE AND THEN SUFFER". AND ONE MORE THING ALWAYS LEARN TO FORGIVE PEOPLE BECAUSE ITS THE BEST THING YOU CAN DO.
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